This riff sort of thing is inspired by I'm Happy You're Here by Ugly.
Another thing. Suffering is yours. Own it. The conditions that led to that suffering are constantly changing and not solid. Worrying about those conditions and trying to make them perfect in your head will never work. You don't own the conditions, the circumstances. Own your suffering, as it is the the only thing you can be sure of. Be fearless of suffering, knowing it is utterly inescapable. And then do things. Not in an attempt to avoid suffering, because that is impossible. Let your actions be done with the highest integrity, not for any pleasure or avoidance of pain, but because it is right, let the truth move you into action. Know the complete dissatisfaction of experience, and then engage with experience without expectation.