Something I thought about today is the idea that I don't want to rush through my life. Rushing now means rushing to rush: rushing until I can't rush anymore, until I die. Rushing doesn't feel good. I think social media and phone use has made me rush a lot. It's a lot of instant gratification, and it doesn't breed patience when you're scrolling endlessly through instantly forgettable content competing for six seconds of your attention.

Rushing makes me unhappy. Jiddu Krishnamurti has a great quote related to this: "To understand the immeasurable, the mind must be extraordinarily quiet, still." When you're rushing, there is no rest, there is only searching, no finding.

So the question is, how do I maintain this sense of rest, of patience, throughout the day. Is it possible to do a lot of things, a lot of potentially stressful things, while maintaining this level of rest and not rushing? I think it is possible, just hard. But the alternative is an unhappy life, so it is worth it to try, in my view.

Some activities/routines make it easier or harder to not rush. I think a high-stress corporate job like in Succession would make it hard not to rush through the day. It's nonstop, you're getting yelled at, everyone else is rushing – maybe not impossible to not rush, but certainly not easy. A painter who paints waterfalls, on the other hand, might find it easier not to rush. I guess what I'm saying is that rushing is a natural tendency that varies depending on the activity, so it's important to be selective with the activities you engage in throughout the day. For me, this may mean not using my phone much throughout the day. Being outside more. Not watching TV right before bed. Reading more. Meditating.

So yeah. I mean I think that's the biggest thing. I should start reading instead of watching TV and using my phone before bed and sleep around 930 consistently. That way I wake up refreshed and not stressed. I should also start spending more time outside. The pace of nature is slow. Billions of years slow. It doesn't make sense to rush, it sets false expectations.

Alright well. That's my take on rushing.


Mind Straw #11: July Twenty Two 2023